Three More

I've got three more songs swirling around my repeat button. Links are included in the song titles.
 
1. RIVERSIDE by Agnes Obel
This is a pretty pretty song by a pretty pretty European woman. Also, her cover has an owl on it. Awesome.

2. GALLOWS by CocoRosie
I first saw the video for this one, and that's how I started to like it. I don't like it nearly as much as Riverside on its own, but with the video, it's amazing.

3. C'MON by Panic! At The Disco (ft. Fun)
I should not like this song. I repeat: I SHOULD NOT LIKE THIS SONG. Why? Because it sounds like a mainstream pop song, and I normally overanalyze and hate those. But this one? This one I LOVE. It doesn't hurt that it's by two of my favorite artists.

My Old Kentucky Home

I don't know what it is about the Kentucky Derby that makes me so emotional. Is it the rousing, heartfelt singing of my state theme? Is it the beauty of the horses, the passion of everyone there, the ravishing greenness of the grass, the egregious amounts of over-sized headgear?

Is there an all of the above option?

I am extremely passionate about my home state of Kentucky. Those of you who know me in person will know that there is no middle ground with me. I either have no feelings about an issue/object/person/thing, or I have ALL OF THE FEELINGS IN THE WORLD THERE IS NOT ENOUGH OF ME TO CONTAIN THESE FEELINGS.

Observe:
0%---------------50%-------------------------------------172%
Math and stuff   Nothing here, are you kidding me?     KENTUCKY
                 Well, maybe life goals. They keep     TOM HIDDLESTON
                 fluctuating between I HAVE ALL              
                 OF THE CARES and I don't really
                 care at all.

In reference to the above graph, one can clearly see that my love for my home state and my love for Tom Hiddleston are the same.

That is a whole heckofalotta love. 

*Side Note: All of these writing-in-CAPS reminds me of my job where I am writing things in ALL CAPS about 97.8% of the time. I keep typing these things like I have Real Estate Law Feels. I have no such feels. There is no fandom to be had for me here. Just FYI.

Doctors. Again.

Fast forward to moving back home for the summer and two doctor visits later.

Here's the diagnosis:
1. I have arthritis. The doctor called it "minor" arthritis, minor meaning that we can hopefully fix it.

2. I need another surgery. My first surgery, the one that I had two years ago, was successful in removing the loose body floating around and getting stuck (painfully) between my bones (which means that I couldn't extend my knee for...well, months, if not a year).

This loose body was a piece of cartilage that had broken off and calcified between my bones for years (about from 7th grade until after my senior year of high school had finished. Someone do that math for me). When it broke off, it left a hole in my knee. The doctor/surgeon micro-fractured my knee, making it bleed in the hopes that it would fill up the hole. It didn't. The hole is still there (it's pretty massive, actually. I'd be impressed if it didn't hurt so bad). This new surgery will be a cartilage graft, where they will take cartilage (either from me or from a cadaver) and they will use it to plug up the hole. I have to go to yet another doctor to perform the surgery.

3. If the pain doesn't stop, I'm going to gnaw my knee off. With my teeth.